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The suspension of freedom

The first time of real confrontation in theatre that I experienced was in high school. We were taken to the theatre to watch Angels in America. At that time, I had no access to arts.

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Édouard Louis
Writer

I was not reading yet. My family rejected books because they felt rejected by books, they grew up in a milieu were nobody would go to school or to university, a book for my mother of father was like the symbol of a life they didn’t have, the life of people who went to school, who studied, and therefore, who had a more privileged and easier life. So of course, they did not like books. Culture rejected us so we rejected culture. But then I was taken by my school to watch this theatre play, a play about homosexuality. Suddenly I saw men kissing, having sex and in a very explicit way. It was anything that I knew about me, I mean my desire for other men, but what I was trying to hide the whole time from the others, because I was ashamed, of me, of these desires and suddenly I saw exactly these on a stage. I actually walked out of the theatre, I stood up and said: I don’t want to see that gay stuff. But it was too late. Something in me was broken and open, I had seen these men touching each other and couldn’t escape the fact that it was my body was asking me.

Culture rejected us so we rejected culture.

What is important in this anecdote is not me, my person, but this : theatre can be so powerful in forcing people to see, what they usually avoid, what for or against they have built exit strategies to not watch, not listen, even if they know these things they avoid do exist, and are there, around us, not only desire but also violence, racism, poverty hate. Everybody know these things exist but often people try to avoid being confronted to reality. Confrontation is what interests me about theatre. A room filled up with people, who have to stay and listen. Of course they can walk out, but there is still, a kind of physical power of theatre. A book you can just put aside or away, theatre you can not. You have to watch and be confronted with what you see. This is the potential radical power that theatre has, the suspension of freedom for a brief moment.

This is the potential radical power that theatre has, the suspension of freedom for a brief moment.

Theatre should never forget this unique power, because along with the power goes the responsibility of the choice of what you are talking about. And that’s why theatre should always be made with a certain feeling of shame, confronting the public, the actors, the makers. To what and whom will we listen and what and whom will be silenced? Of course you can stage “Le malade imaginaire” by Molière, I love Molière, and when I read it I am moved to the core, but at the same time migrants are dying, the Amazon forest is disappearing, women sexually assaulted and not being believed as victims. I think it was Ta-Nehisi Coates, referring to Baldwin, who said : when I walk down the street, I see these beautiful little streets, with beautiful little trees, and a beautiful little bench, it makes me angry because I know it’s a lie. The world is not like this. This aesthetic that I am seeing is not representing the reality, what is currently happening in this world. And that’s the same for me: I go to the theatre and I see “Le malade imaginaire”, and I think this is a lie, this is not what is going on around us, this is not what we live in. Reality is actually a delicate issue. It’s what build us, it’s everywhere around us, but it is the most difficult thing to see, to touch, to represent. Strange, no?

To what and whom will we listen and what and whom will be silenced?

There is still an old-fashioned ideology of what art is, an engrained ideology for centuries: The less you say, the more artistic you are. The more you suggest things, and the less you show them, the more powerful you are. We created this very strange system, in which, if you do art, the best compliment people can give you is: “It’s wonderful because everything is suggested, because it says nothing.” This is only serving the people’s strategies to not watch, to not be confronted.

Often the art field gets tangled up in their own exit strategies. What I believe is that we should use theatre as an art of confrontation, and a place to fight the system with the system - because of course theatre is always part of the system we live in : who goes to the theatre? Who can afford it, who was educated to go there ? Who is absent ? I think we lose our time when we ask ourselves: Can theatre be completely out of the system - system of class, of oppression, of racism, etc. What is interesting is to use the system against itself, like Jean Paul Sartre when he was publishing books in the most prestigious french publishing house, back in the time, or when Toni Morrison was teaching in a ivy league university.

I had no choice, but to be an actor.

How did I started with theatre? Because I was gay and not masculine, my family, my surrounding was telling me that I was different, that I was wrong and I looked for a possibility to escape. In middle school I remember, I went to all the associations of the school, because I wanted a place where I would be loved and accepted : chess, comic, t shirt, poetry. And one day I went to the theatre class. It was strangely easy, because, like many LGBT persons, I was born as actor, inspite of myself. As a gay kid I was always hiding, pretending to be straight, pretending to be masculine, to like girls, to love soccer. I had no choice, but to be an actor. And when I went the first time on the stage of this middle school it was easy, I wasn’t scared, I was 12 and had already 12 years training. Theatre gave me a weapon to fight the system I was living in, to change my reality. Now I want to try to use it in order to change other people’s reality

Photo: Jean-Francois Robert/Aschehoug